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"Breeze (Drifting Free)"
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“Teardrops in The Rain” -
Susan BoYoung Bailey Schabacker
Catch them one by one as they fall
Thought I would lose lose it all
So scared just to fall
But you you told me to keep standing tall
Held high and look you in the eye
And I don’t want to die young
I don’t want to stay poor
I don’t wanna be where I don’t belong
And I don’t want to feel bad
So tired and mad
So bottled up feeling I could blow
Head held high and I look you in the eye
I’ve tried so hard just to live and to survive
But you’ve been with me through it all (through it all)
You’ve been with me
So I stand tall
Teardrops fall in the rain
Try to conceal all the pain
Just trying to stay sane
Like a car veering out of the lane
Just trying to stay sane
Though things are not the same
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"Whispers in The Rain"
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“Whispers in The Rain” -
Susan BoYoung Bailey Schabacker
Ahs
Thought I saw you movin
Ithe shadows on the wall
The graffiti writing hit me
In the heart like a waterfall
And now I’m fallen and I’m calling out your name
I hear you like whispers in the rain
(When I’m not near you the words don’t feel the same)
Because of what once was
Tomorrow’s not the same
Not the same (2x)
And I tried my best
To forget the rest
Don’t you know (2x)
Yes I was a mess
And did my best
I let you go (2x)
You were in my dreams again
Like the writing on the wall
Reached out to catch me
Not alone if I fall
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“Love Me Just The Same” – Susan BB Schabacker
Try my best to be strong for you
As I smile through the pain
You don’t care if I have no hair
You love me just the same
I just wanna wake up from this nightmare
I’ve been livin
Try to numb the pain from all this suffering
So it’s hard to be forgivin
The doctors think I’m dying
But I just keep on livin
Not gonna hide
I will survive
Please don’t cry
Or wonder why
Feeling weak my life looks bleak
Ready for a change from the pain
You don’t view me any differently
You love me just the same
Burned out from all the chemo and cancer
Still looking still searching for answers
Gotta look far beyond the diagnosis
Praying and hoping for a better prognosis
No need to swallow my pride
Thankful I’m still alive
No need to cry
Or wonder why
I know you don’t want me
To hide my face or feel ashamed
You see me the way you always had
You love me just the same
When I’m stranded in a storm
You’re my umbrella in the rain
Want the water to wash away
Every trace of all the pain
Too scared to live too scared to die
But you’re here with me every low every high
How many times have I asked why God why
But your love wipes away the tears that I cry
So I won’t give up I will keep on trying
Time is no matter
Every moment counts
All the tears I’ve cried
But you’ve dried my eyes
Doesn’t matter how unworthy I feel
You love me just the same
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“Broken Wings Will Heal” – Susan BB Schabacker
Like a bird with broken wings
Afraid to fly
Feel the rush of the wind
Through my feathers
But I still can’t fly
As the world passes by
All I can do is wonder why
Caught in the midst of it all
But somehow you catch my fall
Heart shattered like a broken mirror
Jagged pieces left lying the floor
But these wings will somehow heal
Everything I feel is real
Someday I’ll fly into the limitless sky
Spirit soaring
Grains of sand slip through my fingertips
Tracing my name across wet sand
Tide rushes in as it ebbs and flows
Briefly concealing the worst of my woes
As the world passes by
All I can do is wonder why
Caught in the midst of it all
But somehow you catch my fall
But these wings will somehow heal
Everything I feel is real
Someday I’ll fly into the limitless sky
Spirit soaring
Gluing together all these fragmented pieces
Feeling the wind sweep/rustle through my wings
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“Waiting For The Storm to Pass” – Susan BB Schabacker
The light of a candle flickers on
When it’s burned out it lingers on
Hanging on like a fraying thread
Scared like hell that I’ll wind up dead
Thoughts like storms cloud up my head
Letting go of what’s been said
Waiting for the storm to pass
Will you still remember me when I’m gone
Will you still continue to sing our song
You are my port in the storm
Though taken away you’ve given me more
Hanging on like a fraying thread
Scared like hell that I’ll wind up dead
Thoughts like storms cloud up my head
Letting go of what’s been said
Waiting for the storm to pass
Will you still remember me when I’m gone
Will you still continue to sing our song
You shield me from the rain and hail
I know all you want is for me to be well
Hanging on like a fraying thread
Scared like hell that I’ll wind up dead
Thoughts like storms cloud up my head
Letting go of what’s been said
Waiting for the storm to pass
We’ll still be together when I’m gone
Spirit and song will all live on
We’ll all live on
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“Free to Escape The Rain” – Susan BB Schabacker
Feeling numbed and blinded by being afraid (being afraid)
But somehow I have got to find a way (find a way)
Pain from yesterday and today
Can’t escape the rain
Tears fall like raindrops
Down my window pane
Ooh’s
Just want the pain to go away
The distant memory
That’s all I want it to be
Reality in actuality
Is not everything I see
Not everything I see
Cause I’ve gotta be free
And I’ll eventually be
Don’t need anyone’s fake sympathy
All I need is true empathy
Bearing my heart and soul
Sometimes all I can do is pray
Sometimes I feel so weak
Trying not to fade away
Just want the pain to go away
The distant memory
That’s all I want it to be
Reality in actuality
Is not everything I see
Not everything I see
Cause I’ve gotta be free
And I’ll eventually be
Feeling trapped by things that are unseen
Don’t wanna be held back caught in between
Pain from yesterday and today
Can’t escape the rain
Tears fall like raindrops
Down my window pane
Ooh’s
Just want the pain to go away
The distant memory
That’s all I want it to be
Reality in actuality
Is not everything I see
Not everything I see
Cause I’ve gotta be free
And I’ll eventually be
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“Know No Bounds” – Susan B B Schabacker
Here I am feeling so alone
Trapped in my mind
I have to unwind
And I feel like I’m losing all of my time
But I will get up off the ground
When I fall down
Make the most of every moment
That I’m around
Doesn’t matter how much time has been lost
Cause I’ve been found
Hope faith and love
Know no bounds
Once again feeling weak and shaky
I don’t know where I am
This place of hesitation
Has given way to desperation
But I will get up off the ground
When I fall down
Make the most of every moment
That I’m around
Doesn’t matter how much time has been lost
Cause I’ve been found
Hope faith and love
Know no bounds
It’s so easy to give up
But I got to keep on going
I’m still gonna live it up
Reclaim my life reown it
No I’m never gonna give up
’m worth it and I know it
Needed a friend
Who understands the suffering
You reach out and hear me out
You help me forget the pain
And I will never be the same
My crying isn’t in vain
I will get up off the ground
When I fall down
Make the most of every moment
That I’m around
Doesn’t matter how much time has been lost
Cause I’ve been found
Hope faith and love
Know no bounds
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"With Me Through It All"
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“With Me Through it All” - Susan BB Schabacker
It hurts to stay it’s hard to go
Challenging everything that I’ve ever known
But I’m moving on and letting go
I just had to let you know
I feel like I’m waking in a prison
If these walls could talk
They’d tell you
I’m through feeling
Like it’s all a dead end
But light seeps through
Over me and through to you
Dark shadows fall
You’re with me through it all (2x)
I feel like I’m waking in a prison
If these walls could talk
They’d tell you
I’m through feeling
Like it’s all a dead end
But light seeps through
Over me and through to you
Dark shadows fall
You’re with me through it all
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“Every Moment I’m Alive” – Susan BB Schabacker
This morning I shook awake
On the wrong side of the bed
Trying to make sense of these
Thoughts in my head
The weather forecast says
It’s cold and gray but
I’m not gonna sit inside
Hoping for a better day
When I’m stuck in a rut
Trapped inside my mind and body
I remember
It’s the life that I live
It’s the love that I give
Try my best to survive
And I deserve to thrive
Got to take another test
Scared of what the doctor will say
Diagnosis won’t dictate my life
Put up another fight I will not fade away
I’ve been running running away
From this diagnosis
Looking for a better outcome
Prognosis is real and it’s hard to conceive
Need the strength to carry on
And the faith to believe
It’s the life that I live
It’s the love that I give
Try my best to survive
And I deserve to thrive
Rumor has it that I’m dying of a tumor
Malignant or benign I will find the time
These nagging thoughts eat away at me
I feel so trapped but I’m actually free
I will overcome step into the sun
Got no need to run
Cause my life is not done
It’s the life that I live
It’s the love that I give
Try my best to survive
And I deserve to thrive
I’m not afraid to go
Caught in an undertow
Just gonna keep on trying
Got to keep on flyin
Drop it like it’s hot
No never gonna stop
Ticking like a stop watch
Through to the end of time
God knows how hard I try
Got to focus on the life that I live
Got to focus on the love that I give
Its the life that I live
It’s the love that I give
Try my best to survive
And I deserve to thrive
It’s the life that I live
It’s the love that I give
Try my best to survive
And I deserve to thrive
I remember I am here for a reason
Doesn’t matter how many seasons
When I’m feeling weak
And I can barely speak
I remember I am here for a reason
Doesn’t matter how many seasons
Sometimes I feel like pulling out my hair
But now I don’t have any there
And there’s no need to stare
Sick of feeling burned out from all this suffering
Praying and Hoping this was all a strange dream
Distanced from reality
Just trying to bite the bullet
Tough as nails but
I’ve got to get through it
Making the most
Of every moment
I’m alive
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“Defying The Odds of Gravity (Here With Me)” – Susan BB Schabacker
Hanging on like a fraying thread
Scared like hell to wind up dead
Thoughts like storms cloud up my head
Try to forget what’s been said
Not gonna let it define me
Doesn’t matter how fast it’s spread
The doctor’s stage four diagnosis
Will not sentence me to death
I can rise above look beyond this
Not consumed by my fear
I will live my life with passion
A life free from fear
Feeling like I’ve fallen
Like a shooting star
Dead end downward spiral
But I’ve come so far
Somehow defying the odds of gravity
I can fight this invisible enemy
Cause you are here with me (here with me)
Piercing through the darkest shadows
Light reveals a truth that I come to know
Transcending from the depths of despair
Through and beyond tunnel vision aware
Stepping through to the other side
I have no need to run and hide
Staring up at a limitless sky
I am done wondering why
You and I are here together for a reason
It doesn’t matter how many seasons
I may feel numb done with pain
But healing tears fall like rain
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"You Will Fly On"
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“You Will Fly On” - Susan BB Schabacker
Waking up from another nightmare
You reach out your hand
Don’t hide your face from me
Cause I understand
Don’t be afraid
You are not alone
Like a bird freed from a cage
You will fly on
Doesn’t matter if it feels like the end
You’ll make it round the riverbend
Doesn’t matter how dark it may seem
The light will carry you from dream to dream
Though it feels like an uphill battle
I can carry you
When the pain is too much to bear
Know that I’m with you
Don’t be afraid
You are not alone
Like a bird freed from a cage
You will fly on
Doesn’t matter if it feels like the end
You’ll make it round the riverbend
Doesn’t matter how dark it may seem
The light will carry you from dream to dream
Ahs
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“Broken Wings Will Heal” – Susan BB Schabacker
Like a bird with broken wings
Afraid to fly
Feel the rush of the wind
Through my feathers
But I still can’t fly
As the world passes by
All I can do is wonder why
Caught in the midst of it all
But somehow you catch my fall
Heart shattered like a broken mirror
Jagged pieces left lying the floor
But these wings will somehow heal
Everything I feel is real
Someday I’ll fly into the limitless sky
Spirit soaring
Grains of sand slip through my fingertips
Tracing my name across wet sand
Tide rushes in as it ebbs and flows
Briefly concealing the worst of my woes
As the world passes by
All I can do is wonder why
Caught in the midst of it all
But somehow you catch my fall
But these wings will somehow heal
Everything I feel is real
Someday I’ll fly into the limitless sky
Spirit soaring
Gluing together all these fragmented pieces
Feeling the wind sweep/rustle through my wings
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Susan B. B. Schabacker Kernersville, North Carolina
Singer/songwriter/musician/humanitarian Susan B B Schabaker is impassioned and inspired along her musical mission, dedicating her original songs to supporting charitable causes like COVID, pregnant mothers and babies, cancer, and etc.
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